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so it 11:41.
thinking about a lot actually.
so i dont know , things have been kinda retarted
lately. ive been really mad and upset over a lot of stuff
and im so scared to actually say what i feel over some things.
and every person i talk to says the same thing , oh just ignore
it. well i feel like ive been ignoring everything and everyone
that has a mean remark or unnecessary thing to say to me for
the past 15 years of my life. and i hate how people say it.
all behind my back or too scared to say it to my face so you
can try and say whatever you want how ever you want. well dont
because i hate that. and you. and i hate every person i talk to
never really knows what to say, they all say the same thing thats
why i know. i get really sensitive about certain subjects and
i know that people know that but i dont know. i guess i never
know. and what i hate most is that everything was fine the way
it was untill you had to say that. that one thing. just set me off.
completely off. to the point where i wanted everyone to go away.
and everything to stop for once. i hate when people really think
they know what they're talking about, and they are convinced that
they do. well news flash ,you dont. so you can keep telling
yourself that. because it wont do anything for you or me. stop
saying that you know exactly what happened when you dont. but
woops you do. thats right. i hate it. if i havnt said that
enough.
just for once , i wish everyone could forget about what
happened. and now im scared to write certain things because
i dont want to get a reaction on everything i do , say ,
or write. i really dont know what i would say to you if you ever
said anything to me. knowing that you wouldn't just speaking
to you would make me ignore every single solitary word that comes
out of that mouth of yours. theres just that one thing , well i
shouldnt say one because theres many, but that would just make
every point of you standing there a waste of my time and not to
mention my breath. i hate when people do this do something to
someone not knowing that it hurts them. not knowing that if
someone ever did that to them how they would feel. well think
next time. which theres not going to be a next
time so you can do it how ever you want.
i want you to leave me alone. forever. if you see me in the
hallway , look away. and for once dont give me a look. forget
who i am act as if we never met and dont want to me. i never did
anything to you at all and believe me this isnt a personal
attack on you so dont say anything about it. i dont want anything
to do with you. any of you. stop talking behind my back ,
saying things that are just rude. i totally misjudged you. god
for bid i breathe wrong and you have to say something just
so unnecessary and rude. i cant go into words on how much you
upset me the other night. and how low you are to me. stop
butting into my life and everything that goes on about it.
so as of now , stop looking at me.
talking about me.
coming near me.
going out of your way to be everything
i knew you would turn out to be.
so you start it. you end it.
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[16 Nov 2005|06:14pm] |
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alright.
i offically cant wake up anymore.
and i sleep everyday after school.
yes everyday. untill exactly 4:44.
and i miss oprah.
oh and i hate school. :)
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[13 Nov 2005|09:21pm] |
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so my parents came home yesterday.
didnt think i would ever say that i actually
missed my mom.it was crazy. i only missed her
because i live with a bipolar sister , but were
best friends. when we wanna be.
uh lets see. i never write in this thing
um wednesday. went to nick's with chip and mike
hah it was fun , left there around 11:30 then
went backto my cousins house basically fell asleep
in my clothes. then woke up at like 12:30 or
something.
thursday. woke up , ate some poptarts i think. then
layed around there and froze my butt off. i
think i wentsomewhere that day but i forget. fell asleep
at like 2 and woke up 12 hours later.
friday. went to the mall at like 1 or something.
didnt have any clothes , but i managed. made a
build a bear. hahathen got GLORIA JEANS<3 and went back
to my house. got ready for the game, and then went to
jamies with my best friends. the game was freezing. it
hurt so bad and i still think my feet are trying to
recover.
saturday. woke up at like i dont know 12? then watching
life as we know it with kate for like 4 hours straight.
then came home and showered. uh then i didnt feel good and
so i threw up. i dont know why but i felt a lot better.
then today i woke up at 11:30. walked around and went on the
then showered and did stuff then went to nick's at like 2:30.
computer and stuff. made some burnt pancakes which sucked.
hung there with him for a while , it was fun. then came home
and made some tuna. ate that , then sat around. fell asleep
for about 15 minutes haha then did nothing.
im freezing right now.
really dredding school tomorrow.
i hate hate hate it.
then bball thing till who knows when.
i update this whenever.
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[08 Nov 2005|05:16pm] |
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alright so i just got home.
went to cousins house after school to do this thing.
ate some cheese puffs then came home.
im freezing. making some sloppy joes.
schools been going good actually, for once.
uh friday i went to the game. it was fun
then left and went to taylors house. ate some stuff
hung around there for a bit , then walked home
with al and taylor. it was cute. i loved everyone
there.
then saturday. parents left. yah boy!
then sunday i dont remember.
yesterday, fell asleep 1st/2nd period
then 3rd i dont remember but i was pissed off.
then 4th uh gay.
today was alright. couldnt wake up because i go
to bed to late but whatever. lol
me and mike dont talk in school. but we talk online
dont ask? i dont know why. i think hes scared to talk to me
or something. dont really care to be honest with you.
update this whenever.
leave it.
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[03 Nov 2005|06:08pm] |
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so im real confused at the moment.
kinda pissed too.
ok so schools alright. getting better i guess but whatever
i get to much homework and its just annoying.
so me and mike went our seperate ways and thats why
im kinda like uh? cause alright, we havnt hung out in like 3
weeks. and like i dont know everything seems really akward and
weird everytime im around him and stuff.
he agrees.
so then yah, were done. which im completely fine with actually.
i just wanna have fun and not be bothered by all of that.
monday was halloween.
it was fun. went with britt taylor tom pat chris tanner tyler
bunch of cool people. went trick or treating for a while then
went back to britts. it was fun seeing and being with all of
them again.
tuesday. school, then came home and slept for like 5 hours.
wednesday i had bball after school but i forgot my shoes so
i went home haha. then today was school. it was stupid and i dont
know what im doing with this whole mike thing becasue he like
treats me like were still talking
but were not. for all of you that think you know what your talking
about. stfu :D
ugh. this is annoying. i hate telling people how i really feel
becasue i think that it will hurt there feelings , like mikes. but i dont
know i cant be someone im not i guess so it'll come out sooner or later. but
yah friends have been good. bballs alright.
went back to goetz today. it was pretty weird but fun. saw zammit hahaha
it seemed like those days were so much fun , and i mean they were but
i dont knowi guess i look upon last year as kind of like a joke. it was so
much fun being with everyone but if you think about it , nothing really
mattered.
none of it.
wish it was still like that.
a lot.
oh and i just got my eyebrows done.
and i offically look asian.
PEYCE.
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[20 Oct 2005|09:42pm] |
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i never update this anymore.haha
a lot has happened , i hang out with jame alot.
shes a funny girl.
"CHUCK FIGHT" lmao.
schools alright. getting better actually
today was boring though , i couldnt wait to
get out. so tomorrow im playing hookey HAHAH
and going to new hampshire with the fam and cousins
and stuff to visit jeff in college.
should be fun.
were leaving early tomorrow morning , and it
takes like 5 hours to get there so it should take
a while. staying up there to see this pumpkin fest thing
and then leaving sunday momrningish to come back.
i dont know why but i hate leaving jackson.
or home period.
im only going for the weekend , and a few weeks ago
i actually wanted to get out of here and now i dont eve
wanna leave for just the weekend. hah weird?
but yeah so i wont be in school tomorrow.
ill do this when i get back sunday probly or something
mikey face.<3
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[12 Oct 2005|03:33pm] |
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im freezing.
and i hate school.
therefore i nap everyday.
yesterday was nicole's bday.
i love her<3
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[07 Oct 2005|09:59pm] |
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school was alright.
came home and made plans with al, but then i
couldnt go , along with everyone else , so i went
to the mall with taylor. i love her so much.
we have so much fun together. we had gloria's <3
ahh i loved it. met up with kyle and tyler the whole time
and we walked around with them. i love them both a lot.
and their girl pants.<3 so it was fun. a lot of fun actually.
AND I SAW HARRIS<3 from vacation. ahh missed him a lot.
then taylor dropped me off here.
now im sitting here and im in a kinda bad mood.
but whatever.
comment
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[06 Oct 2005|03:46pm] |
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so today i woke up so late.
around 5:50ish? and i had to shower.
so i was rushing the whole morning.
put me in a bad mood. ha
then gym. it was so humid
played some special-ed soccer.
made me laugh a lot.
then science. hate it x 28374
then algebra. i love alex knueppel.
then english. same old stuff
but i love taylor.
then had bball stuff. it was retarted
and it always gets me in a bad mood at times.
now im home , eating everything.
OC'S ON TONIGHT.
comment yo.
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[05 Oct 2005|05:53pm] |
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went to the mall with jame today around 1.
it was nice , caught up on some old times.
haha i love her a lot.
got 2 shirts.
and gloria jeans<3
and pizza
then came home , cleaned my room.
ate a potato for dinner.
now im falling asleep and trying to
finish all this homework.
comment.
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[05 Oct 2005|11:25am] |
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um so yesterday i went out with nance.
we went to see a movie , then had lunch at the mall.
it was cute.
them came home. slept for like 10 minutes
then talked to taylor on the fone.
then nick forever.
then noah , then went to bed.
today woke up around 10:28ish.
freezing.
then came down here and made some chocolate
chip pancakes. they were amazing.
now im sitting here talking to jamie and taylor
about today because i love them<3
oh and mikes missing!?
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[03 Oct 2005|10:11pm] |
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so i jumped out of bed this morning
because basically today was a friday.
school's still retarted.
but yah.
then had bball till 4.
and came home showered then went to
my grammy's for her birthday.
it was nice.
but today was like national
"CALL KELLIE DAY" but i loved it.
and now im home and on the fone
with taylor. for like 3 hours
and then i dont know.
comment.
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[02 Oct 2005|12:49pm] |
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uhh today i woke up at 10:30.
then ate breakfast
and now im putting my room back together
since i redid it and stuff.
pretty sweet.
then later mike's come over.
woohh.<3333
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[30 Sep 2005|03:11pm] |
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today was alright.
freezing but alright.
tonights the football game so that should
be fun and stuff. im going with jamie and al
again and then staying over nicole's for the
night. i love her , havnt seen in her in
a very long time. so that should be much fun
school was retarted.
ah im annoyed a lot. i cant
belive you would do that to all of us.
your all about yourself lately.
so two faced.
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[29 Sep 2005|03:28pm] |
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PS. i miss vacation.
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[29 Sep 2005|03:26pm] |
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ok so today i couldnt wake up for the life of me.
and i dont know because i went to bed real early last night too.
so umm today was alright.
gym's my favorite.
then science i dont care again.
then algebra.
then english.
so then i stayed after and didnt do anything.
hey! once again?
im really over this whole school thing.
its really annoying and i hate seeing stupid annoying
rumor starting people in school. they're gay.
and i always enjoy little pussy anonymous comments
about tyler and i. there cute. grow up
10 bucks i know who you are.
COMMENT.
AND LEAVE YOUR NAME
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[28 Sep 2005|03:43pm] |
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today was stupid.
just like every other day
gym was freezing and really annoying.
but i love jessicaaa so we made our own fun
then science. i dont care
then algebra with al. it was alright
then english with taylah baby. boring
i havent talked to mike in like 2 days because
he's real sick. =[
so now i just got home from bball workout
things and cant really walk. but yah its alright
i havnt been in a good mood lately for a while
i dont know why though. ive just been getting
really easily annoyed by a whole lot of stuff.
im so sick of school already.
and i miss vacation,still. and think about
it way to much.
C0MMENT.
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[27 Sep 2005|02:36pm] |
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alright so i havnt updated this bad boy in about a month or something
but yah , not like anyone reads it. hahaa
so schools alright actually.
could be better but its all good
today i thought about vacation and it got me sad, real sad.
but its alright.
so english is amazing because taylor seda's in it.
and were just amazing together ahaaa
i fall asleep in science everyday and then wonder why i do bad.
but hey , its all good. and algebra's good with fran in it.
oh and mike makes me happy.
COMMENT?!
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[30 Aug 2005|04:15pm] |
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i havent updated this in a while .
but vacation was unexplainable.
i miss everyone so much
i think about it a lot and it makes me sad.
but im going to al's tonight with tyler<3 and timmy.
so that should be fun , i still talk to a lot of the people
on the fone and computer so its not that bad.
i went to the scrimmage today with kyle john and steve.
ahah they came here then i drove them all there. it was fun
but hot as woah. the boys did good and i havnt seen them all
in a while so it was cute. AND I SAW MY BEST FRIENDS =) whom
i missed a lot.
we so beefed it.
but im seeing everyone from vacation the sept.24th =)
or earlier. i dont know , but im counting down the days
<3
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